17.02.26

i feel like the more i talk, the less i make sense...

17.02.26

happy lunar new year!
today i feel a bit better. i slept the whole entire day yesterday as well. my mum, instead of telling me to go out and freshen up, hugged me and layed down with me and asked me what she could do to make me feel better. so i don't think it was all in my head. i love her.
i woke up at 6am today and had a really hard time going back to sleep. i've been working on opac stuff since this morning, it makes me feel good to do things when i feel like doing it without being rushed. especially when i have creativity flowing in my system when it comes to creating visuals for our insta page. i also contacted some artists for an event.



15.02.26

i didn't do anything today. i woke up a bit early but i can't remember what i did.
i cried a lot last night before falling asleep. i feel exhausted for multiple reasons, each independant from one and other.

i wanted to deep clean my home while my parents were out but i never had the motivation to do so. instead, i stayed in my pyjamas and rotted on my couch.

at some point, it started to snow and then it became a full on snow storm. but i was too busy sleeping the whole damn day. my joints and muscles hurt so bad from not moving once.

these days, i feel too much on edge, too tense, too angry...but today, i just feel pain. i feel sad, i want to cry, i want to curl up and sleep and not do anything. i don't want to talk to people. i don't want to go out.

15.02.26

i want to leave everything and everyone and go somewhere where no one knows me and where i know no one. i want to start fresh

14.02.26

i feel like i mostly come here to vent at this point. it makes my heart ache because i created this page to (try to) update it everyday about my everyday life and keep record of what i do and what i feel (because i seem to forget most of the mundane in life) but these past days i've been just spiraling and venting and feeling sour all the time. i feel like being petty, only because i feel deeply hurt.
i don't think that i want to keep talking about all these feelings on this page. i want to keep it cute and cozy in here. maybe i could create a vent journal? idk i feel like that would be a negative thing to keep.

08.02.26

i feel empty and full of emotions at the same time.

my social battery is so low, i just want to disappear from all social media and not see anyone. i already made a few plans with friends. i just want to disappear. i'm so tired.

04.02.26

finally saw C after a long long time! she's my best friend, i missed her so much! today i also had lunch with my opac friends but idk if i loved it or found it a bit unsetteling. i learnt something weird about one of my ex crushes and i saw him too and it was kinda weird, i got love bombed a lot and it made me feel weird for the first time. i usually enjoy it when people tell me nice things or compliment me but for some reason, this time, i felt kinda opressed and idk it made me so stressed so i just left a little bit earlier than i should've had before seeing C. i got to pass by action to get some glue tapes so ig i'm happy about that. and seeing C just made every weird feeling i had go away!!! i love her love her love love loooooove her sm.

rn, i'm trying to call A cause i wanna tell her everything about today but we seem to be missing each other's calls, it's comical at this point. i spent the last few evenings at her place to help her with her 3D model for her uni (she's studying architecture omgg so cool) and i loved doing it so much hehe, i got to stay for dinner too and her mum makes AMAZING food, i love her!!!! she even gives me some food to bring home ugh i love A and her family and her cat Hermes!!!!!! i love spending time with her sm hehe

i have a lot of love in me. i still feel a bit weird too. i feel like me going outside of bxl for uni is getting too real and i'm actually gonna shit myself because of that. but at the same time, i'm over excited to study and live on my own and just ahhhh i'm so happy i get to do that and have supportive parents who will finance my needs and always be there for me. besides, it's gonna be only 1,5 hour train ride away from home so it's really not that deep. i just feel scared that i might not make a lot of new friends or do make new friends but don't spend much time in bxl (naturally) and so stop talking as much with my friends here because i'm a shite to talk to online and keep contact with people i don't see 24/7 but it doesn't mean that i don't care about them, i just suckkkkkkkkkk. i'm worried about all these tiny things, not even living alone for the first time ever, not starting over from the start, idk i guess i'm also terrified of being abandonned so if my friends don't see me irl regularly, they would forget about me and replace me and idk i'm overthinking everything....i just want to be able to enjoy these next few months with my friends. i hope they won't forget me.

01.02.26

i haven't had the time to upload in here last week because Paris was quite hectic but also so much fun. it's always fun when i'm with V <3 i even saw her today and helped her with her 3d model (architecture student core) i hope she likes what i've done lol.

tomorrow, i will see my close friend I and give her her bday gifts and we'll have a small walk and have some coffee together. i will then go to schleiper to buy myself a good quality cutter and a new journal!

26.01.26

it’s currently 9:57am and we’re on the bus on our way to Paris! i’m so excited, i kinda gotta pee but i also refuse to use the toilets on the bus (didn’t even know there were some????crazy)
i’m also typing this on my phone and it’s so inconvenient, i really dislike it lmao, anyways, i’ll try to update either ways!

we slept a little, sometimes there was snoring, sometimes there were people kissing and smooching, anyways a little funny as a trip.

25.01.26

just finished packing and i also cleaned my room in the meantime! my friend A is with me rn and we're on a call with another friend of ours, A, and it's so much fun hihihi. it's like talking about relationships and boy talk and i feel like i'm 14 again and it makes me feel so happy. it's the simple things like that that makes me love being a girl.

we're having some snacks rn and just chilling in my room hehe.

update: it's almost midnight and we just had a huge conversation, like almost 2 hours omfg!! it was so ressourceful and it felt like listening to an amazing podcast and i just loved tonight omg. i miss A (back in Lyon) so so much <3 can't wait to see her next month when i visit her!!! and tomorrow morning, we're taking the bus towards Parisssss with A (Vivi), i am SO excited, idk if i'll be able to sleep from all the happiness and excitement i have rn hihihihih, good night everyone!

24.01.26

today was GREAT! i baked some cookies using la turbean's recipe so it's yummy yummy, then i used a technique to unshrink my shrunken cardigan lol, it looks like it's working (it's still has to full dry), i also went outside and got my nails done!!1!1!! they are SO PRETTY and i just feel so good and pretty and yeah i'm feeling myselfffff.

for dinner, i made tempura for my parents and it was yummy but i think these days, i'm extremely picky about food but also very sensitive to oily fatty foods (even salmon, i wanna cry) like it makes me gag uncontrollably ugh. so i feel very sick rn. but whatever ig.

i just oiled my hair and gave myself a massage (already feel like my hair looks healthier???) and did my skincare and once again, my nails look so good hehe i'm happy.

L sent us the pics from their digicam from last night and GOSH i love them so so much, we look so good.

anyways, today was great overall :D

23.01.26

i didn't do much this morning. i woke up really early but then i sat down on the couch in the living room and it felt too cozy so i fell asleep and didn't wake up till quite late. in the then joined a webinar for a presentation of a course i wanted to follow and it went great, even had the opportunity to ask some questions! and then i got myself ready to go to L's place for a little pizza party!!! we were just 3, the og holy trinity, les gros chevals ki pu, it was so sp fun hehe, we made horse shaped pizzas and had wine and gin tonic, we yapped a lot and then spent a lot of our tipsy time crafting and junk journaling!!! i really love spending time with these two :D

omg also,, i saw my ex crush assistant guy in the bus when i was on my way to L's so i was gonna shit myself lmao. he might have seen me too, i wish i talked to him but at the same time i was literally gonna get of on the next stop and i didn't wanna cut the convo short because when i talk to him, i just talk and talk and he does the same and i have big changes in my life that i wanna tell him but like i can't blurt everything out and then just leave, like, i genuinely miss talking with him so much, he was a very nice and fun person. i wish i'd known him in a different context without a student-teacher hierarchy (even though it's not the case anymore), it's weird lololol i'm crazy, but i'm freeeeee

tomorrow, i'm gonna get my nais done hihihihi i'm PUMPED. i'm also a little anxious cause i have never been to this nail artist so like, it's gonna feel like a first date, i gotta talk and make small talk and blablabla, kinda embarassing for me idk, but it's ok, with my other nail artist (godbless her, i love her), i had the same worry but now we yap non stop when i see her so it's going to be ok. plus apparently she has bunnies!!!! cute cute cute. i don't have anything planned for the night, i wanna do something with friends but i don't want to be the one reaching out for some reason #diva like pls contact me instead aaaaaa i wanna be desired. that's my mood tonight. i looked so good tonight with my boots and my dress and my makeup, i'm cool actually.

22.01.26

today was fun, L came over and we ate lunch and then baked some cookies! honestly, it was nothing crazy but it's my favourite type of hang outs. i also went to retrieve a vinted package and had to pass through my ex's street so that felt weird,, plus, i was listening to purple rain by prince and the weather was weirdly fresh and the sun had just set..so yeah, felt full of weird nostalgia for some reason.

i walked a little too instead of taking the metro.

i also started making bagels (currently letting the dough rest as i'm typing this at 8:40pm) i added some purple yam powder in the dough so it turned out a pastel lavender colour.

i also feel weird today. but it's ok.

21.01.26

i woke up early and motivated today but i had a huge mood shift around 11:30 am and that made me want to isolate myself and not see or talk to anyone. i felt so exhausted, crusty and disgusting today, i also had a huge headache which didn't help with the situation. i actually didn't eat or drink much either, just had a hot cup of lemon water and some miso soup in the morning and then a full pack of long chips and then i regretted it and that's pretty much it. there was no more water at my house (we only drink bottled because my family has reccuring kidney stones problems) so i barely hydrated myself so that was really not a good idea.

i went outside only because i had an appointment with my psychiatrist in the afternoon and cancelling it would've been too expensive lmao. but it actually went very well, for some reason, i was very positive and it was nice to yap to someone.

i went to the bio market right after and finally got myself some chocolate banana granola to eat with yogurt in the morning because i really need my daily dosage of protein. i also got some dehydrated soy, some choco-oat cookies, a questionable amount of shitake mushrooms and a baguette.

20.01.26

hello hello! today was such a great day! i was so worried for my attitude for today's opac meeting but it was actually so nice and i think i'm at peace with opac overall! all i needed was to see my friends and vivi (the cat) <3

before going to L's house, i was on an hour long call with one of my closest friends, A, she gave me juicy updates about her situationship with the "herbivore guy" and then we yapped about random things and even had a deep nostalgic conversation on how we're growing to be adults ahhhh.

the meeting was very nice and productive, it was so nice to see J after her hibernation (kidding, she was head first in her exams) and ofc T and L! after J and T left, i stayed a little at L's place and fangirled about vivi (the cat) and we chit chatted on random stuff (for some reason, horses were a great part of our conversations) and we ate some sour cream & onion long chips (genuinely obsessed with them, there might be some crack or nicotine in them idk) and then i left and went to the small mercery i went with L & L a few weeks ago!!! got myself some more cute buttons (actually a lot), some lace ribbons and a cute piece of fabric i will try to sew on one of my old tops as a cutsie lacey collar!!!

19.01.26

i woke up pretty sick, still with a cough and a sore throat but my mum prepared me some ginger tea and gave me some medicine and i took a shower half an hour ago so i feel a little better! i wish i could go outside and enjoy the sun but i think it's better for me to stay home and rest because tomorrow, i'll have to go out for a meeting and i guess i'm also a little tense about it because it's for a festival we're organising with my uni circle and i feel like we're so understaffed and i took big responsabilities that i don't neccessarily enjoy but it's ok. i just want people to actually answer my questions or respect my deadlines if we wanna make this work. especially for the communication part. i just can't do everything alone if no one ever tells me shit. anyways. i'm getting annoyed and ahead of myself once again.

i made lunch for my mom and i and i've been loving tinned sardines recently and my cat (who usually hates fish in her cat food) jumped next to me because she got a whiff of my sardines and she was begging me to get a taste so i ended up sharing sardines with my girl cat i love her sm, now her breath probably smells like dead fish, love that!

i'm gonna try to take care of myself today,i already put on a face mask and it felt great but i also want to dry and style my hair, give myself a mani pedi, clean my photo gallery on my phone, if i have the energy, clean and tidy my room a little, etc. i also wanna listen to a lot of music. i feel like i haven't been listening to different types of music these days, so i really wanna do that. oh and also drink a lot of tea.

17.01.26

as usual, i didn't do much today. i woke up fairly early but stayed in bed until very late. i actually woke up with a horrible sore throat and it's still hurting now (it's 10:30pm). i went to the market and got a few random things and then went back home and played some minecraft!

oh also, in the meantime, my tamagotchi evolved into a mimitchi so i am EXSTATIC about it. she's so so cute.

my parents also came to the sea side and now i'm with them and we finally threw threw rubbish out so that feels nice. it also feels nice to have some people, some noise around me. the sea side is very nice and calm but since it's absolutely not the season, almost everything is closed, there isn't much to do, even going on walks is boring and unpleasant. so i've been stuck home, doing unproductive shit while eating really cheap snacks.

it's nice tho, my parents took me to Bruges tonight and we went to this beautiful restaurant where i had spare ribs (i barely eat any meat these days and it felt a little nice, although i think i prefer a more plant based/veggie diet!)

now we're back home and we're gonna watch the new season of emily in paris (i know...a little embarrassing but it's so stupid that it's stress relieving for some reason). wellllll anyways, i will go shopping at local shops tomorrow in Bruges because i really want a few winter accessories, especially for my upcoming trip to Paris with A!!!

16.01.26

today i didn't do much because i was binge watching a random tv show...but i finished it so i didn't have any other reasons to rot in bed. so i took a nice shower and then went to the supermarket to buy some water and snacks.

and then i crafted some random small things like paper guarlands and some embossed picture frames!!! i also did a few pages of my junk journal (trying to get on that! i love it when things are neat and clean so junk journaling is a little challenging to me but i also collect a shit ton random scraps so at least i get to use them for something!)

now it's 9pm and i've been on a long facetime call with A, she's talking to me about her situationship with the herbivore guy...i love hearing her stories. i also love talking to her. right now, i'm multi tasking so hard, on a call with her, had a grilled cheese, digital journaling and listening to "Hi, I'm a Slut" by Lil Mariko (don't ask......)

if i feel like it, maybe i'll try to have a solo photoshoot with my projector hehe, i have an energy peak now right nowwwwwww

14.01.26

good morning!!! we woke up around 9:30am and chilled a little before going to the supermarket to get some croissants and other small things! the weather is very very nice. we had breakfast and now we're having a chill moment of reading our childhood comic book, "Les Nombrils". i just finished the series so i'm updating this digital journal!

on the menu for lunch today, i will prepare a mediterranean chickpea salad. we will do some crafts and journaling a bit later as well hehe. and in the late afternoon, we might go on a walk at the beach! very nice day.

my tamagotchi upgraded to teen this morning and i think i'm taking pretty good care of it for now! i hope it will evolve into a cute one!!!

13.01.26

i just arrived at my sea side apartment with my bestie gro chevalier ki pu L!!! it's so fun already hehe. the train ride was a little hectic but then we took the tram and went to a supermarket and bought some yummy food and two bottles of wine. fuck yes. anyways. we're gonna prepare dinner and then watch twilight and have snacks and wine and yayayay i'm so so happy i came here with them hihihhohohohoh.

update 3:30am: made myself throw up cause i chugged so much wine as if my life depended on it and then my belly hurt so much from all the shit i ate so yeah. made me feel so so so much better!!! can go back to sleep in peace now hehe.

12.01.26

i just woke up, it's 10:45am, i had a horrible dream where i was with my parents in vienna and we were waiting to board a plane back home in a weird place with some other passengers and there was as plane in descent but it was missing a wing and it just nose dived on to the floor and it exploded and it was scary but the first thought we all had was "oh well, now statistically, OUR plane WONT be crashing haha" and then a second plane was descending and once again, it was missing a wing and it crashed again and so i was just like "oh well, maybe not then" and started full on having a panic attack and tried to convince my parents to leave the weird place (it was like a military experiment place that also had a small airport idk) and take a train back home even if it was going to be more expensive and longer and so they agreed and right at that moment, a random aussie dude just appeared, he was looking very 80's and he was self tanned and wearing flipflops and a sparkly crop top and he was talking to the crowd of passengers like "oh well, mates, you should board your plane soon, yeah? it will be very chillax, yeah?" girl wtf. and me and my parents were fed up so we kinda discretely tried to leave the crowd and find an exit from the weird place and we found ourselves in the corridors of an eerie looking experiment lab, and we tried to flee but people were after us and then i don't remember what happened but i was having a full on dramatic epic fight with one of the experiment evil lab doctors with a small pocket knife (i was pretty good at it too) and yeah then i woke up and idk what the fuck that was all about. made me sweat cold too.

anyways! i just had my morning coffee, i will tidy up my home a little and take a nice deserved shower (haven't washed my hair since thursday, i feel so yucky) and then will go on a hunt for cardboard hehehehe. the weather doesn't seem too bad either today yepiiie!!!

11.01.26

just had brunch at lucifer with my bestie A!! it was very yummy and there was a very majestic dog with a mickey mouse tshirt inside the cafe as well! my other friend A and L were working there today so it was also nice to see them :3

now we're at the library, A is studying and i'm updating my digital journal! i also took my physical journal with me so i can finally update it as well. i miss writing with a pen a lot. A also gifted me cute stickers, a lovely handmade card and the fève that i "got" from when we ate some galette :3 it's a cute little hedgehog, i love it so much!!! tysm A, ily. (sorry L, i will not be giving you this one, i love it too much xx hahah)

i've been listening to the army, the navy absolutely NON STOP, i think my ears are not used to this much repetition of music...what can i say, i just love them too much.

10.01.26

today was fun! i woke up not too late then went to have brunch with my mum in a nearby cute cafe! we then went to les petits riens where we spent maybe 2 hours omg!!! we got so many cool things, i got beautiful dark teal corduroy trousers (they are a little too tight on the waist but that's my fault for getting 3 sizes smaller than what i would usually wear...i'm a shapeshifter)
we also got pretty jewelery (i got a silver bangle yay!)

anyways, the day was very nice, we also ran some errands and all but i was with my momma so it was fun either way! i also cooked some vegan mac & cheese (i like to call it "crack & cheese" how it be so damn gud) and some veggies (i've been loving green beans these past few weeks) and had that as dinner but i still feel weird about food and i will not elaborate on this topic on here...

i played some guitar as well after dinner. a lot of "the army, the navy" songs because i love them and they are so cool and their voices are fucking angelic. i saw them in concert a month ago, i was right in front of sasha and maia so they kept on smiling at me so it made me feel very happy and special.

i keep on filming myself singing on the guitar but then watch it a bit too much until i hate everything about it so i never post :(

tomorrow, i will brunch with A at Lucifer so i'm very very excited about that hehe. i might also go to the library right after with A so she can study (godblessher) and i could maybe journal on my physical journal, do some random crafts and maybe work on my portfolio (really lazy about that tbh)

09.01.26

7:45pm - the day was so so fun! i loved taking my gro cheval ki pu at creacorner!!! we got tiny matching horse figurines and other random stuff. we then went to a cafe that opened not so long ago near my house, it was the first time i was testing it, and it actually turned out so nice and cozy, i really liked that place! i might try to return there soon with my parents! even with the heavy heavy rain, today was still super fun.
i have a horrible headache now, i'm also so tired omfg. i was just cutting some more homemade stickers i printed a few days ago with my mum and we were going to decorate our journals together but her work laptop and monitor kept on turning on so she went to check wtf is happening and now she's been working more (again...) since half an hour and i feel let down cause we barely ever have some mother daughter time and she just let me down once again for work and i don't wanna disturb her cause then she gets angry and anxious and so doing the activity we were originally doing doesn't seem as spontaneous and fun anymore, it just seems forced so i feel sad.

tomorrow, i really want to go to a beautiful art nouveau building to visit it but i also feel so tired and just don't feel like it :( also my parents won't be at home in the evening so i wanna see someone and do something fun, cozy and nice but i feel like all my friends are occupied and that's totally fine of course. i really don't feel like being all alone these days. even if it's to just scroll randomly on the internet, to take a nap or to watch youtube, i just want to be with someone doing that. i've been yearning for company these days.

today's plan is to go to uni around 1pm, get myself an oat cappuccino and finalize my CV for uni applications.
i will see L to go trinket shopping together so i'm really really happy and excited about that but the weather is shite once again...
it's raining cats and dogs and the wind is violent. i hope we will be ok lmao

08.01.26

today A came to my house to study a little while i was *finally* applying to a few dutch unis. it was so nice to see her one last time before she went back to Lyon (even tho i'll see her there in about a month lol).
then i met up with T and V at a cafe and they had matcha, i had a black sesame latte and it was so good! it was so fun but i think i became crazy and annoying and just irritable once T said he met up with a friend who had SCABIES!!! i HATE it here. i am genuinely so terrified of a few things in life, one of them being fucking scabies. the name even scares me--gosh, i really feel like i'm going crazy...
and the weather was also so shite today, so i think that added to my craziness and on top of that, i also spent a shit ton of money for things i really didn't need AT ALL...everything makes me feel stupid today.

on a less fun note, i had a low moment regarding my relationship with food and body image last night so i felt weird about having food today, i didn't eat anything, i just had the sesame latte and some bites from the hojicha cookie i had ordered but felt bad finishing it so i just offered it to my friends instead.
i feel quite weird and stupid these days but tomorrow, i'll see one of my best friends L and we'll do healing stuff like trinket shopping so i'm happy about that.

07.01.26

i don't have plans for today except for seeing my best friend A before she leaves again for Lyon! we're gonna grab some coffee and chit chat in the afternoon. i am a little worried tho cause the snow is getting very thick and the weather is just so cold and windy, i hope i won't die on my way to the café...

i also wanted to help L with some more embroidery but i think i will stay home and rest a bit instead, very sad about it but it's ok, i think one of their friends is also going to pass by to help them so i'm happy for that!!!

i also need to start applying for unis cause i wanna start a new bachelors next year but i gotta apply first (shocker), i'm so lazyyyyy and i just don't wanna do it (but i really DO wanna study, it's just the applying part that makes me feel so AUUUGHHHHHHH)

05.01.26

today i went to my piercer for a checkup bc my daith was so swollen, it was almost comical the shape the irritation bump had grown into: spoiler alert, we had to change the beautiful clicker ring to a curved barbell and taking the ring off was like walking bare feet in hell idk. but it was cute, lenny (one of my percers) was very calming, we kept on talking brainrot and about perfumes and it was nice, it made me feel less stressed (it didn't hurt any less tho lmaooo) next time, i will make sure that i properely take care of my piercings :')

anyways, after that, i was caught in a snow blizzard and quickly took the metro and met up with V, she came to pick me up with her car and we went to buy a "galette des rois" and then we went to her house, had lunch and then ate the galette. it was very yummy and i got the "fève" so i became queen!!! very nice experience hehe. after filling our bellies up, we planned our little trip to paris and i'm super duper happy about that!!! so so so excited, i'm even gonna get my nails done right before so i can be stylish during the small trip. it was also so funny because V's dad installed a huge projector screen + got a karaoke machine recently (this crazy adorable man, god bless) so we were just talking to each other but with microphones as if we were recording a podcast and i think...i think that's basically the definition of our friendship HAHA. i had a great day, but i feel so damn tired, tomorrow, i will help my dear friend L with their jury work, we're gonna do some text embroidery and i think another friend, A, will also come so it's gonna be very fun! we might even meet up with some other friends to have another galette des rois hehehehe. anyways, all this rambling to say that i enjoyed this day and i hope tomorrow will be at least as fun as today! i'm gonna try to sleep now, good night x

04.01.26

it's almost 1AM, i'm so tired...i went to my parent's friends house for dinner/tea and it was very fun, their daughter who is i think 6 years younger than me is so fun and she's also so cool. everytime i'm with her, we just become one giant ball of brainrot, i've seen her grow up so that's why i have a sister bond with her. but i also felt so awkward, i'm generally awkward with people i think. sometimes idk how to act, sometimes, i act in a way that doesn't match other people's energy at first...but it's ok cause after a few minutes/hours, i start to mimic and match the vibe of the people i'm hanging out with. i'll become your carbon copy, a copycat who mirors you. sometimes i feel like i don't have my own personality, i don't have any personality, i don't have any originality, i am just an unauthentic and cheaply made replica of something already existing and beautiful. i've been feeling happy without exterior contraints attacking this feeling for the first time in a while but now, i feel like it's my own rotten mind that's trying to sabotage it. i think i might just be tired and sleep deprived, that must be why i switched moods so quickly and suddenly. good night world x

02.01.26

first days of 2026 already make me happy! i created this website (took me painfully long to debug a few of my codes so that was a bit less fun) but now i get to finally write in here!
today i first went to Schleiper with my dad to get a very fine tipped brush and a 0.05 tip fineliner. in the meantime, i also spoiled myself and got a new kuretake water brush as well as a basic soft cover note/sketch book. then we went to Leuven, i wanted to browse Søstrene Grene so that's what we did and i got myself some cute *useless* stuff (but it made my heart happy). we then went to a little café, my dad had some delicious sweet potato soup and i craved some nachos and salsa so that's exactly what i got hehe. we then went to Albert Heijn and i bought some plant-based américain spread (omfg) it was so so so good!!! when we came back home, i showed my mum everything i bought and then i decided to wrap the notebook i had gotten earlier with the beautiful paper i had bought back when i went to Paris! and it really turned out so pretty, i am very proud of myself. and then after all that, i decided to finally start my january 2026 watercolour project and i finished up the sketch and prepared a nice colour palette to my liking. i will start painting it tomorrow. i am soooooo excited!!!!! and of course, because i am a very responsible person, i decided to create this whole website around 10pm with very rusty coding skills so yeah...let's just say that it took me quite some time (it's currently 2AM aaaahhh) anyways, i will go to bed now :3

i spent the new year's eve with my dearest and oldest friends, A & G, it's been a while since i've truly hung out with them and it took me right back to first years of secondary school...i missed it a lot, i love them so much even though we grew to be completely different (yet not so different either). i'm very happy i get to keep them as close friends in 2026. i will visit A in Lyon end of february because she's studying for her master's degree there!!! maybe, if i can save enough money, i could also visit G in Seoul where he's been living for the past 3 years.